08.08.08

August 15th, 2008 by besttobelucky

With such a unique date comes a very SPECIAL day! Yvonne and Joneville’s wedding… My first ever wedding invitation and yes, i’m very glad to join in the celebration on a very special friend’s wedding! Yvonne looked so nice that night!!!
When i arrived i help out with the ushering of the guests to the tables and i was extremely delighted to find that my table was so near to the couple’s table…hehe Ushering the guests was a lil’ tough, since my map reading skills sucks plus my bad sense of direction even in a restaurants hall… hmmm so a few mistakes were made! sorry!!

Oh and when we were all seated at the table, suddenly this Hindustani music came on and some dancers came out carrying our food and performing, That was cool man… The next nice thing was Yvonne’s brother’s speech which was so touching, my gosh… he said this “YVONNE, YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION” Wow! And me and Cindy were like Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww….. How sweet of him! Did i mention he ia so tall?? I’m amazed!

Lifeline’s performance was great, a prayer for the couple.. Oh i forgot to say, before the whole thing begun, Fr Michael said grace and i find that super special! Loved the idea…

The night was perfect, ended with everyone dancing, all sorts of dance came out, the sumazau dance included, singers were great and all was nice! Enjoyed the night and a wish of the happiest marriage to Joneville and Yvonne, hope that both of you will be blessed by God abundantly!!!!

Black & White

July 26th, 2008 by besttobelucky

Here’s a poem with no ending… hehe

When the heart wants what it can’t have

When the mind keeps shouting rationality

When frustration and longing seeps in

What pain it brings

Armed with wisdom yet not the strength

Words of rejection yet whispers of invitation

Dying to taste from the plate of destruction

Longing to sip from the glass of poison.

When the mind is at war with the heart

What kind of turbulance it can start

When mustering a drop of discipline requires a gallon of strength

The temptation at hand seems all but unappealing…

24/7/08

Hooooolidays!

May 29th, 2008 by besttobelucky

I’m so happy there’s this 2 weeks break, a much needed time to get off school, (though i only attended it for 2 days) and relax! So, there are a few things i was planning to do during this hols and a few has been accomplished.. I changed the position of my bed and tables so that i wuld have enough space to study form 6 which is scaring me already! You should see the books man, there’s like 3 chemistries now!! THREE! And put all the 3 books together, we get the thickness of 2 dictionaries, and they expect us to finish studying that in 1 year! Bio is not as scary as i expected but Math is making me worried… Not to mention, everyone who talks to me about this is advising me to only take form6 as my last choice coz its like so tough and no one has actually said that form 6 is easy know… I envy those doing college *sigh!!* Well, too bad the fees for foundation is just so CRAAAAAZIE! so thanks, i’ll just cont doing form 6!

Oh, i’m supposed to get myself a new log on Blogspot also but i’m just too lazy to start, wanted to download musics online into my laptop, (did i mention my father got me one?? i’m enjoying it.. lol) but also too lazy, and i’m expecting the appeal for the JPA scholarship results to be out by now, BUT IT ISN’T!! Nonsensical, what’s taking them so long?! I just want the satisfaction of knowing!

I’m dreading the time when school reopens, i’m damn scared of orientation week, haha… I promise to not do to my juniors what they plan to do to us now… T.T Anyways, just get over with it. And i watched Narnia the other day, with the gals in my CG, well, it was a really ‘deep’ show as Cindy outs it. And after the show, we went to Tj Aru for a drink to wait for the guys CG to end. Followed Felix home and reached around 12 am plus i think and it was super supprising that no one waited up for me! Yay! An improvement! hahaha…

So nothing much happened… all is well and good. Hopefully i’ll find some kerajinan to start a new blog in blogspot… Buh-bye!

Back from NS

May 22nd, 2008 by besttobelucky

I came back to Sabah on 21st May, it was a long flight, i slept most of the time. haha… Well, since I’ve been through NS, I just wanted to say that it was TOTALLY NOT what i thought it would be! Well at least it wasn’t for my camp la… I was so scared on the first day coz i thought i will be in the hands of cruel army ppl who dont give a damn about your well being BUT that is totally not true… lol. I actually think that they over care for us! They dont force us to do any exercises which we cant do so if you’re sick or smth you just ‘keluar baris’ and sit at the side. BUT i have to say, the wiras got so much worse then the wirawati(s)! lol… They get ‘front support’ as their punishments most of the time and also pumping. As for the wirawatis we dont do pumping and our usual punishment is ‘ketuk ketampi’ which is super fine la. The one time the wirawatis got front support, my shoulders were aching like mad, not to mention my palms. I can only imagine what the wiras have to face…lol

I love the Physical Module la… its soooo fun and challenging! I love kayaking, flying fox and the KEMBARA HALANGAN!! though i got myself a tiny scar when i was doing it, somehow doing the Tarzan swing, climbing a 6-feet wall, doing the ‘merangkak biawak’ and so many others seemed worthwhile and memorable. I love marching so much coz of its discipline though it was under the super hot and blazing sun, i just didnt care! haha… Plus we looked so cool in the full loreng (pakaian yg tercantik di dunia!!) lol! oh and the M16, needless to say was just soooooo cool!

Oh and NS made me do many many things I’ve never done and gave me tons of new experiences. For instance: I danced the ‘bhagra dance (if i got the spelling right) on stage for the majlis penutup kelas Integrasi, embarrased ourselves and redeemed ourselves again…lol, all the things i’ve done in the physical module are ones i’ve nvr done before, I juggled, i did gotong-royong in a house which had tons and i mean TONS of cockroaches, lizards, centipedes, rats, cengkerik and every insect you can imagina la but i still had so much fun. No scorpions lol.. I slept in a dorm haha, washed my own clothes and bathed cold water with minimal complaining, did my lay out kick (tidy our bed the way the want it) properly without kena-ing tsunami once! I’m so proud lol… And so so many more la. Oh ya! I learnt a lil’ Tamil which i so much enjoy speaking haha, and also Iban. Managed to break the communication gap between the Indian girls and also the other races…

Overall, I really really love NS, my camp scenery is the best in the whole of Malaysia haha… especially after it rains when the mist appears… gosh, speechless before nature’s beauty.

Anyway, now I’m back in sabah, just attended form 6 in La Salle for the first time. Hmmmm…. I have no friends from St Francis at all there which makes me SAD! really, i’m so sad to be the only one there, still dread going to school. I have made new friends la but still… being new always sucks. Plus i heard that during orientation, that is when school reopens, we will sort of kena a few things from our seniors. I was told i had to make a name tag, front and back with the measurement of 40cmx30cm… I wanna cry la… Y???? I was praying all day long that my rayuan for the JPA scholarship will be accepted. Please GOD!! Help me!! Lessons have started and my Bio teacher made us scared today! lol… Everyone is saying that Form 6 is so difficult and all, so much to study, so much to do… gosh i really hope i can cope. It is during these times that i really wish that i had an older brother or sister to help me out… Hope i’ll survive!! lol…

Trust Him

May 11th, 2008 by besttobelucky

Thought i would like to share something which i found on my uncle’s bookmark a few weeks ago… Really nice…

Trust Him

Trust Him when dark doubts assail you,
Trust Him when your strength is small
Trust Him when to simply trust Him
Seems the hardest thing of all.

Trust Him He is ever faithful,
Trust Him for His will is best,
Trust Him for the heart of Jesus,
Is the only place of rest.

Trust Him then, through doubts and sunshine
All your cares upon Him cast,
Till the storm of life is over
And your trusting days are past.

Have a nice day, and TRUST HIM!!!

JPA interview

April 3rd, 2008 by besttobelucky

    Since i have nothing to do now and i’m damn worried, i decided to talk about my interview yesterday. But first of all let me say why i’m just so super super worried now! To qualify for the JPA scholarship for medicine, the candidates would have to first fill in the application form online, attend the Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor, attend the interview and complete an online test and prepare a whole lot of certified documents. So, i’ve done most of it but my birth cert, ic and my parent’s birth cert was not certified and there was no original copy for their birth cert. My parents thought that I didnt need those certified. So the interview letter said that if i dont hv those stuff my application will terjejas. Okay la… Nothing i can do about that. BUT today, i wanted to do the online test and there’s the time limit, i hr 15min and we have to use internet explorer. I wonder why in the world did i ignore that syarat and used mozilla firefox instead!!! So when i clicked on my first answer the time immediately stopped and the thing said "kamu telah melebihi masa yang ditetapkan" and it wasn’t even 5 sec yet. My gosh, i almost fainted so i immediately called JPA and told them what happened. The guy asked me a few questions and found out i didnt use internet explorer and he said thats the cause. He ask me to use internet explorer and i asked if it will be okay ady? He said they will have to reset the system thingy and asked for my IC number. He say try again in 30 minutes… Thanked him but i’m still soooo worried la, coz there’s no internet explorer here, or at least i cannot find one in this comp so i will have to wait until my uncle comes home which would probably be ariund 7pm then after dinner and all around 9pm… HAIH…. I’m just scared they decide not to reset for me or forgot to do it then i just miss the CHANCE to get almost half a million dollars worth of education!! Needless to say, i’ll receive proper scolding from every single family member which will leave me feeling completely ground low and stupid. Sometimes i wonder why i do certain things… haih…

Anyways, interview yesterday, went with a taxi, no jam, road was very clear, taxi driver couldn’t be nicer. I arrived about 15min before time. So many ppl were there and hence, reminded me of the great competition i was going to face. I went straight to where a group of candidates were standing and found out that we were divided into groups and we will be interviewed by different panels. So mine was Room 15, Panel4. There were about 18 names on that list of paper so when it was time for the interview, they split us into another 2 groups, my group was 2nd so we waited for the 1st group to finish before we were allowed into the room. The 1st group took such a long time, other people were already released but they were still not out. So we waited until around 10 smth when our interview was scheduled for 8am. There’s another group at 10am. So when i stepped in… the room was quite small with 9 chairs arranged in a semi circle. BUt we only occupied 8 chairs. One man one woman interviewer. We had to give them our original copy or certs before we sat then they started writting stuff and told us to calm down and ‘tenangkan fikiran’.

Air-cond was so cold i started to shake slightly not of fear but coz it was so cold. So they asked us to introduce ourselves, tell them about our family, koku activities our ambition and which country we want to study our course. I was number 3 so we followed the sequence. We had to speak in BM which i was quite worried about considering my lack of practice but thank God i made it. They interrupted me when i said i hope to study in Ireland but i dont mind any other country. The lady asked if you were to get India will you accept? I said "sudah tentu, kerana India menghasilkan doktor-doktor yang baik and mereka lebih menekankan praktikal ketika belajar di sana." Then she said not all doctors from India are good coz they can buy certs there and i was like ‘ooohhh’ and she was like are you aware of this? I said ‘yea, i’ve heard of it." Then the guys asked me coz he was looking through my certs and found the Most Promising Advocate award for mooting and he said "I see here you joined mooting, arent you interested in becoming a lawyer?" lol… Then i said i’m much more interested in medicine. After everyone had their turn, the lady gave us the question for our group discussion: If you were given a chance to change something from your schooling days, what would it be any why? Suddenly i felt like i was in those beauty pageant thing when they had to answer this sort of question. Nevertheless, i was super gratetful coz one, it was an easy question, two this session was in english. She asked who wanted to start first and my head was blank at that moment so i didnt go first. I was probably the 2nd last one to answer. Many said they wished that they were more active in sports (most of us are chess player…hahaha but we had an international bowler and a karate black belter in our midst). 3 actually said they wished they changed school coz the condition there was unsatisfactory, then i said that "on the contrary to my 3 friends here, i wished i didnt change school (i really didnt know what else to say… hence this reason seems to be the best coz there’s a lot of points to elaborate) coz i had to adapt to a new surrounding, get used to the teacher’s teaching methods, make new friends while at the same time try to balance my studying. I told them it was a difficult thing to do but thankfully I could cope and just for laughs i added that I would have chosen to go to a co-ed school instead of a convent school at which the interviewers both looked at me and the whole room laughed. I said that co-ed school would give you the exposure you would need around guys blah blah…
From the question i really didnt know what they were looking for in the answers i also dont know if my answer was good enough or outstanding enough. This question was supposed to be a group discussion but the ppl sort of ended up talking to the interviewers only which weren’t really looking at us, they weren’t interacting. No one talked to each other and we went by turns… I was like what? is this right? so when it was my turn, the best thing i could do to make it look like a discussion was to look at every group member and try talk to them and the interviewers, try to make it seem like a conversation. But there was no reply from anyone so its A ONE WAY CONVERSATION lol…

After that question, the lady said okay this is the end of your interview, me and another friend, Ainaa were sort of blur and "huh? that’s it?" but we just took back our files said thank you to them and went home.

Let me share what other groups got as their group discussion topic.
1. What qualities do you think a leader should have?
2. Handphones, A necessity or luxury?
3. 12th general election. was it democratic or people’s displeasure. (See my comment, not very sure)
4. How are you going to promote malaysian culture abroad?
5. Heard some ppl say not sure true or not: Talk about dengue, TB…etc. Do you think girls are smarter than boys?

So overall, compared to these questions i’m so thankful mine was fine and easy and the interviewers weren’t challenging our answers. Well they did la a bit but i didnt kena. They asked why you want to study abroad? then some said things like i want to experience the various cultures there, then they ask Malaysia also got various cultures what why must go overseas? And when they ask what country would you like to go to, some answered UK, then they ask why not India? I read one girl’s blog who got really scary interviewers who wanted to get you out of your comfort zone and so they challenge every answer you give. I was sort of expecting that also but we got good people…haha

Well, i’m off to look for nice movies to watch and i really do hope that they ady reset the online test thing for me la… haih…

Hello Again! (long post)

April 3rd, 2008 by besttobelucky

I dont think I give people enough time to start missing me~ lol… I’m out of camp once more, for the JPA interview. It was fine and they asked easy things so i dont really know how are they going to choose people from those questions. It didnt take that long also thankfully. Went and came back with taxi and will go back to camp on the 5th! I tumpang the Cheng Beng hols… haha..

After the last blog post, i went back to camp and i hated it all of a sudden…things were happening and i hated it. I love the activities hate the things going on. That was when i miss home so much, wanted to cry every single day… BUT now everything is solved and camp is actually getting funner each passing day…lol I love the PT (physical training) and the CB (character building classes). So so fun and nice, but the last BD class was yesterday and this week actually we are doing all the fun things like water activities and tali rendah and kraf hutan but  have to leave… haih, sad.

Anyway, i am only a ‘partial’ participant of the camp la sadly… haha… The whole of last week i was in Hospital Selayang, to fulfill one of the requirements for for those applying to study medicine for JPA. Its called "Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor". Its from 9am-10pm, coz we were "on-call" also…haha. BUT this program was really nice coz the people in my group were super fun!! I miss them already!! There were around 20 people in my group and within the group we sort of split into 2 groups. So it was from monday to friday, i spend 13 hours with them per day and how can you not get close right once we spend so much time together. We were assigned to wads like Emergency, Orthopedic, O & G, specialist clinics and the morgue. 2 groups managed to see an autopsy but sadly mine wasn’t one of them. Nothing really major happened in ER also except for this guy who was involved in a fight and his head was sort of cut by a parang, 3/4 bandaged so we didnt see much. But i managed to see the doctors clean a bed sore for a 60 over yr old woman. Could see her inner flesh like those beef meat they sell in the market. Had no idea human skin can be that bad. The doctors were cutting off the dead skin. So luckily i got to see that! Our group is too big la thats y the doctors also dont allow us to watch most of the procedure…

Anyways, back to the fun part, my new friends. All together 3 ppl from my camp went, so at least the camp ppl provide transport la. Most of my time was spent with  Jun Yuan, Adnesh, Samuel Raj, Ruth, Weng Hoong, Sue Wei, and Anisha who’s always missing…hehe
Jun Yuan is a seriously shocking coincidence friend man! On the second day or something when we found out about something we were both so damn shocked we couldn’t talk properly for about a minute. I’m still shocked at how small this world is, still cannot believe he ended up in the SAME HOSPITAL in the SAME GROUP as me. Even when we entered the morgue later, i could tell we were both still wondering about how this sort of thing can actually happen. He was studying in Sabah for 7 years and we found out by chance that we have a friend in common. (Cannot really say what it is in case the 2 get angry or something.) And this guy can solve a rubic cube in 1 min 15 secs the last time Adnesh recorded. Amazing. Seriously. Damn funny guy, and talks with a kind of unique slang.
Adnesh, funny guy!There was once i dunno who suggested that when we talk, we are supposed to end each sentence with the word "man!" so they were going round talking like crazy ppl. See what people do when they get bored! haha… Then there was once we found out that every time we walked in the hospital, we sort of block the walkway coz our group is big so we decided to walk in a single file. We actually formed a super straight line and walked, some ppl starred, me and Ruth were laughing so hard we couldn’t really walk properly. We did it for quite some time some more… The next day my muscles hurt from laughing so much. Then there was the lift incident where they pushed Adnesh out coz there were too many ppl. Yup, horrible ppl! haha…Then there was one day, the guys were like forcing me to play UNO la, eat jelly la, chewing gum la… lol… They bought to eat and i was like ‘i’m full u all eat la’ then samuel just threw a jelly into my hands. haha… I ate 2 in the end.
When we got bored talking to patients, we watched Russell Peters (if i got the spelling right), through Adnesh’s phone, funny guy, laughed a lot also.
Last day of the program, we ordered Domino’s pizza and went to sit at the pondok in front of ER to eat. Adnesh and Jun Yuan went to collect the pizza and Adnesh pretended they were doctors and told the pizza man that the doctors were having a picnic! lol… He even called Jun Yuan Dr! haha… The NS ppl weren’t allowed to follow coz we would spoil the whole act so me and Ruth and Sue Wei went to get straws from the cafe while Samuel (same NS camp) and Weng Hoong went to book place. So we ate until an old woman came and started smoking so we left. Through out the 5 days we played truth or dare, UNO cards (seriously hope JPA dont come visiting ppls friendster profiles!) And of course we took many many pics!! Too bad my camera was not with me.
There were days my legs were so tired i could barely carry myself and i even started limping. Me, Anisha and Samuel have PT in camp before its time to leave plus some patients can talk for hours and we have to be standing in a single spot during that time, whoa… damn tired. The worst day was when we were on-call at O & G la… That time could barely walk so we all took a seat on the benches provided, some were too tired they slept, i could barely talk by then… So we were all resting la.

So this is indeed a long post… haha and i think i’m darker now and i’ve learnt 2 days ago to start eating 6 meals a day. Dont waste ppls kindness… haha. Bathing water super cold, mornings are also damn cold, there are monkeys in camp, that day during PT pagi we actually saw PIGS running in the hutan! haha… The hill to our dorm is still as steep as ever, by the time we reach our legs are so tired, hope my synovial fluid is fine….lol. I love the physical training la… They still dont have my kasut kelas and sukan size. And camp is seriously getting funner la… They send us to church too… there’s a funny story to that but lazy to type ady…
So good bye for today! haha

Back to camp

March 22nd, 2008 by besttobelucky

Finally! I’m going back to camp today… After just spending one day there, i got permission to go out, spent the last few days in church, window shopping like crazy, applying for scholarships and now i’m finally going back! haha… But! tomorrow, they’ll have to bring me out again to Hospital Kuala Kubu Baru for the "pendedahan kerjaya seorang doktor" under the JPA scholarship requirements… I hope that when i go back and inform them today they wont scold me for informing late! Die! haih… So troublesome la… I wish i got first batch instead but then again i wouldn’t have the opportunity to work! So now, i’ll go and post some more scholarship applications which i hate so much to do coz the processes are just so long and troublesome but i’ve finally completed the thing and i hate that the interviews are interrupting my NS! Cant i have some fun? Well, not exactly fun la but still… And I’ve been fed a lot of delicious food these few days by my uncle and aunty… wah… so full to the max man!
Easter celebration in St. John’s cathedral was nice, well more interestng that Good Friday and Holy Thursday~ My uncle got Baptised!! Yay!! So nice… I like Fr. James, he’s so practical and nice. And my following masses, i’ll attend in St. Jude, Rawang!
So thats all for now… Till i get hold of a computer again! Take care everyone!!

A few days off!! kakaka

March 20th, 2008 by besttobelucky

    So the only reason i’m here is PLKN has been kind enough to give Christian students leave coz of the important celebration days we have in church this few days… Catholics are having the Tridium now… starting with today, Holy Thursday, tomorrow, Good Friday and then Easter!! So thankfully, my uncle could come fetch me so i did attend Holy Thursday mass and will be going to Good Friday and Easter Vigil also! St. John’s cathedral… super huge and packed! Looks like PLKN really practice religious freedom! They send Christians to 2 types of churches per week depending on you are Christian or Protestant, so you choose!. They send Buddhist to the temple, hindus too and even the Sikh people get to go! Fantastic. So u see now i have 5 days of free time away from camp. 20-24march and i have to be back before 1700! haha…

So far, so good. We got our clothes today after we waited for what seemed like decades… My dorm unfortunately is the furthest of all dorms! We have to climb a really steep hill and my dorm is right at the end of the dorm rows… I will definitely be fitter! Its so tiring to walk up and down and now the activities have not even started! My friends are mostly form sabah now, my dorm mates from terengganu and sarawak. But majority sabah… so its not that different also la…
Or Ketua Jurulatih is a damn strict guy but he is also so funny… Gosh… He can joke like crazy but at the same time you know he is serious with his threats… And i have a locker right beside my bed. On the first day a few of my things were taken away ady… Like camera and nail clipper, just coz my nail clipper has that blade thingy…
Food is fine, most of the time i’m too hungry to be picky…lol
But as i said, activities have not started so this is not the real deal yet. I’m glad they are taking away our handphones (they have not done it yet!) so that i wont complain unneccessarily coz the first 2 weeks are bound to be super horrible… dont want anyone worrying about me for no reason coz i’ll be used to it later. We were taught how to fold our blanket and stuff ady and i was supprised at my discipline this morning… got up folded blanket straight away even though was still groggy! haha… was so cold this morning coz it was raining. Still have no idea how to bathe in that place with no place to hang clothes while bathing.

But overall its nice la.. no problems yet. Just worried that i’ll have to go in and out of camp for this scholarship business,,, haih… I love PLKN its just that the timing is totally out la… Oh by the way, my camp has a breath taking scenery! EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL if i’m not mistaken ‘batu kapur’ things… There’s one high one like a mountain made up of batu kapur… nice place la… Hope everything will remain nice!!

18 march

March 18th, 2008 by besttobelucky

    My last day online! These few days have been really busy; packing, going for my medical check up which took 2 days! and going to school to get my certs certified. First time I went, Pengetua, Pn Pang, wasn’t in but i got the GPK HEM, Pn Aini to certify most of my certs ady. She was so kind, despite being super busy she still signed! So today I had to go back to school to meet Pn Pang so she could certify my results for the JLKN money. haha… Then went to Karamunsing to get our water filter which was being repaired back and went to the Clinic Kesihatan again for the Pegawai Perubatan’s signature. Running all over the place but luckily not as busy as yesterday coz my packing is three-quarters done. Just found out my classmate, Fatehah is in the same camp as me but the thing is the Peg. Perubatan said she cannot go for PLKN. She’s sad coz she ady bought all the stuff needed. I dont know if she will still be coming tomorrow coz she wants to try and get her forms approved again.
    At the clinic some incident happened which made me feel like a horrible, useless citizen. After getting my approval, I waited for my mom to come, outside the clinic. There was this old lady who used a cane to walk standing there. Waiting for her car also. So when her car finally came she walked towards it but there’s this small step she has to get down before reaching her car. I was standing right in front of her but my mind was some place else, I didn’t really realise what was happening. So another man standing at the other corner had to come and help her down the step so she could get into the car, that was when i realised what was happening. I feel so horrible. Such a useless citizen! Shall remember to concentrate on the people around me! Keep my mind where my body is… haih…